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10 Days to the HOLIDAYS!

Admin — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 11:26:30 +0000

Another semester is almost over. In 10 days, I’ll have completed my final exam for the term and coincidentally will be celebrating my 26th birthday! You know the wisdom I was supposed to have somehow receieved at 25? I believe it is coming this year (because it sure as hell didn’t last year!).

Many things have been happening in my life. I have been sleeping a lot so that I can convince myself that nothing’s happening but they are. My nephew’s started preschool the other day (the one in Singapore) and my neice is getting older. Aren’t we all?

My aunty in Australia (I have two over there) was chatting with me online and told me that she had met someone, one her kid (my cousin who’s around 18 years old) doesn’t want to hear, speak about or even see. It’s a fresh relationship yet already rocky. I convinced her that the guy probably wants to take things slow. Let’s face it though, she’s in her mid 50’s and I’m assuming the guy’s slightly younger, or older and how slowly can you take things at that age? That guy better work it. Can’t depend on that Viagra forever.

I was thinking of going home this holiday. I initially was saving my money but then squandered it when I decided not to go. It was stupid of me to spend my cash, but then I’ll be extra stupid if I leave Changchun this holiday. I’m a student, I don’t work and therefore depend on the Chinese government’s allowance and my country’s allowance for my pocket money. Needless to say I am hopefully going to graduate next year July and I have no assets to my name.

I must have written before in my blog that I’m not rich. I’m not even middle class. My mother was the sole breadwinner of the family (my parents are separated) and my dad’s no where to be found. The last I heard, he had called my mum up asking for US$100. If I had the money I’d have given him. He did support us in the past but somehow screwed up his life.

Now, my brother is the only one working. He’s married but still lives with my mum, but eventually after saving up enough money I’m sure he’ll take his wife and daughter and live elsewhere, be it in my country or elsewhere. He’s quite successful, working as a lawyer in a private firm.

This July, my sister studying in Shanghai will graduate. She claims she might not but I have high hopes that she will. She can be quite pessimistic at times. I suspect she might end up the most successful of all my siblings simply because she’s fervently ambitious, contrary to my elder sister who is frivolously ambitious. There’s a massive difference between wanting something and saying it, and wanting something and working hard to get it.

For me, I don’t know what I want. I probably want a bit of fame, a bit of money, but I want a lot of power, because with a lot of power, everything comes and fall into place eventually. With power comes resourcefulness, connections etc.

I’ll write down my new years resolutions here this year. Every year I write down 10 resolutions, not for new year but for my birthday. Due to its proximity with new year, I begin my new year then. Annually with the turning of my age!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!! 祝大家2009新年快乐！！！

Admin — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 17:15:50 +0000

I would like to wish everyone a happy, proseperous and successful new year 2009! My year started great, spent the night with my closest friends and went to bed at 11.30am. I don’t want to see this year as anything but one that’s going to be full of surprises like the rest before, and one where I hopefully can find the courage and strength to change the things within myself and not expect it from anyone else.

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Zero Error

Admin — Mon, 22 Dec 2008 11:54:04 +0000

I found out the other day that my scale has a 2 Kg zero error! I don’t know whether it has always had that error or it just broke but it reads that I am 53 Kgs when in other scales, I’m 51 Kgs.

The Biggest Loser: Families is over and as expected, the sole remaining black member, Michelle has taken the prize. I have to say, that was very expected, Jillian Michaels winds again.

“God, give me the strength to remember amidst adversity I am blessed”.

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Flu Relief

Admin — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 17:26:32 +0000

This past week, many people in the dorm have caught the flu and for some crazy reason I wanted to get sick. My reason is because Christmas is near followed by exams and therefore I would re\ather be sick now than later. I purposely hung out with a flu-infected friend, but somehow my symptoms seem to be a lot more “painful” than hers.

I barely slept a wink last night due to muscle aches. I had fever and not sore but a terribly itchy throat. I went to the shop and stocked up on Gatorade. I read online that the reason why the muscle aches is mainly because of the lack of potassium and sodium in the body. The fever is due to the body’s defense mechanism of trying to kill heat sensitive invaders. I have been moaning and graoning due to the muscle aches and I had crazy thoughts of how Bufferin plus seem to be so helpful for the pain. Imagine, cancer patients take morphine due to the amount of pain they suffer. I can’t imagine how much more painful cancer is.

I have also taken Amoxycillin for the bacteria moving around my body. I find that taking Amoxycillin is extremely helpful in combatting any throat infection. I was speaking to a doctor friend who adviced me to take panadol and drink lots of water but what he didin’t tell me is that Bufferin Plus, Amoxycillin and Gatorade works a lot better!

Also try to avoid eating to much solids, drink a lot of soup. Your body needs to expend its energy on fighting the little invaders and not digestion!

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Never Not Eat for Two Days

Admin — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 01:23:11 +0000

In my previous posts I have told you that I had lost my apetite for two days this past weekend. My advice to all of you is to never do that! Once you start eating again, it doesn’t feel good. I suffered from diarrhea after that McDonald’s meal yesterday and I just breakfast (ONE SLICE OF BREAD and PHILADELPHIA CREAM CHEESE LIGHT) and I feel sick to my stomach.

My stomach must have shrunk to the size of a pea and I see that I will have to suffer to expand it once again. Of course I don’t want to have to expand it too much! I don’t want to have an apetite of a horse either (like I did before!).

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Drop out of University NOW!

Admin — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 01:17:13 +0000

Do you know how many times I have wated to quit university? I have wanted to quit ever since I knew the word “University”. I have always felt that contrary to popular belief that a university degree gives you the opportunity to be a “somebody”, a university degree makes one lose individuality.

Most people who graduate from university joins a workforce of someone at the top who doesn’t even have a university degree. You become merely someone’s toy soldier, you get paid an allowance and you work so hard and never find the time to dream your own dreams, all the while the person at the top’s doing just that.

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My Dream as a Writer

Admin — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 01:08:00 +0000

I had always wanted to be a writer. Even today I’m not following that path with the major I have chosen but I still wish to be one. I want to document something meaningful to me and I feel I can’t trully do that unless I get rid of this emotional ineptitude.

Where did I go? When did I lose the person I was? How do I find her and where do I start looking? I need to focus. To focus on my goals in life and ensure that before my dying days, I can be satisfied to know that I have tried to achieve them and that in itself is an accomplishment.

I have been reading this book I started reading when I was back home in my country. I would read a few pages every night before going to bed. I brought it here with me and the book is already being made if not have been made into a movie and all this time I have not completed the book. Why? A part of me feels that it is because I don’t want to let go of that memory of reading the book back home. I feel if I finish the book, I will have to begin a new chapter of another book and I have this fear of doing that.

If I had to write a book, what would it be about? Something I feel extremely passionate about? I wonder…

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NO LABELS PLEASE!

Admin — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 21:40:41 +0000

I have been watching a lot of racism videos on YouTube and found many to be rather offensive. I found comments from so many people, racist comments, derogatory comments, simply because people have this insatiable need to be better than everyone else.

I know many people have this latent racism, latent homophobia, etc and I want to personally combat that in me. I don’t want to ever think racist thoughts, be homophobic and in anyway think that I am better than anyone else and so today, I want to give a shout out to everyone who is reading this… NO LABELS PLEASE! Let’s not call ourselves white, black, Asian, straight, gay, bisexual etc. There is no need for this degree of classification because the more we classify ourselves, the more we feel we are being categorized into a group, the more we shun others for being different!

Enough with all this! We are human beings, we are supposedly the most intelligent animals on earth and that’s more than enough classification and categorization we need!

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Weighing in at 51Kgs (112.4 pounds)

Admin — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 21:35:13 +0000

I lost my apetite this weekend and seriously ate 5 pieces of chicken Mcnuggets (the masala ones) on Friday night and had not eaten all of Saturday. Finally yesterday (Sunday) I ate two pieces of fried chicken and a grilled chicken sandwich. Should I mention that before eating that Sunday meal, I weighed 52Kgs still and I weighed myself this morning and I’m 51kgs.

To be honest, I have never felt better. I feel and look much slimmer and still have some belly fat to lose! I am not at all anorexic!

I understand that the other day when I got drunk, I drank the usual amount of alcohol I normally would drink if I were 55Kgs but now all I should do is limit the amount of alcohol I take. I’m just hoping that I don’t go drinking too much this upcoming festive season!

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Where’s my apetite gone?

Admin — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 16:48:10 +0000

After my drunk episode the other day and yesterday and today my menses have come, I have lost my apetite completely. I have also been rather depressed and have been crying for all sorts of reasons. Some personal, some due to movies, some to touching stories about Child abuse on YouTube shared by the members there. I don’t get what’s wrong with me. I’m sure I’m incredibly hormonal but it’s never been this terrible. The weird thing also is that I’m not really thinking about anything, but when I do, I start to feel an immense sadness immediately. I don’t get what’s happening to me. It’s got nothing to do with my life, it’s more to do with other people I am letting down. I don’t get it but I hope it somehow subsides sooner than later.

I just can’t wait for next month.

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